Holy cow, you wouldn't believe what just happened... I, JENNY HOANG, FINISHED MY SAP ESSAY BEFORE TWELVE OCLOCK. :) I finished studying for the exam too... Damn, I am on a ROLLL LOL . Wow, I feel so hyper these days . Alright , now I have free time before I drop dead from exhaustion , off to youtube all things asian! ♥

PS. My bangs are way too long. I look like the friggin grudge girl. I am dangerously in need of a haircut.

So I'm supposed to be finishing up my final ISP paper for summer school (hurray it's the very last assignment!) but I got bored out of my mind ): I'm counting down to the finish of this self-inflicted torture. Only 3 official full school days left for me! PLEASE END SOONER. I am practically falling out of my seat right now from lack of sleep from the past two days! THIS IS SO WRONG. Summer is supposed to be for getting sunburnt after falling asleep at the beach and sipping lemonade slowly to make thirsty onlookers jealous ): This is gay to the extreme. The only thing keeping me awake is music, this rant and this...




^ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA GOONG IS &hearts

Yeah, I think I'm on some high because of this lack of sleep. AHHH, FRIG, I HATE WRITING ESSAYS WITH AN EXTENSIVE PASSION RIGHT NOW. Back to work.

"I'm doing everything I can to shake you, still see your face when I know you ain't there. All I wanna do is I wanna move on but I gotta get my mind off you. Now wherever I go, it feels like you're there with me. You're like a ghost, you haunt me like a ghost"

So as I finished Goong yesterday, I was overjoyed with the ending but at the same time I felt really sad it ended. Anyways, after finishing this drama, it made me feel, well, lonely-ish. Well, let me try and explain this in a non-awkward way. Watching this drama got me remembering a certain someone. Someone who was special to me once. Someone I made myself temporarily forget by busying myself. Nothing really happened between me and this person but I really did feel betrayed when this person just kind of upped and left. It's like I was just forgotten. And now this person is on cloud9 or whatever, while I'm still here waiting to be remembered. Stupid. What happened to those times when we talked for hours? What happened to those times we laughed and made fun of each other? Don't I deserve to stay friends with you at least? Don't I get to be remembered? Did I not have an impact on you like you did on me? AGH. It makes me so mad that I was there for you during your times of need but now you just abandoned me like I'm a toy you got bored of. I wish we could be friends again. I don't admit it to you or anyone for that matter... but, I really do miss you.

Guess what? There's only 8 more full summer school days left. Plus, I get to skip 2 of them since I've had perfect attendance so far >:)

So today (technically speaking, yesterday) I had a very long phone conversation with an old friend of mine. My first baby step to getting socialized again. She said my thoughts were kind of depressing and maybe it's paranoia. LOL. Maybe I am just a teeny bit paranoid at times. Well it felt nice to talk to someone again. It was... refreshing? Kind of gives me the courage to start socializing again :) Then two other friends called to make plans for August... Wow, big improvements in so little time! Haha, now I'm off to watch Goong. Addicted I know.

I just had to record that I am, officially, addicted to the Korean Drama Goong :)
PS. My blog's finally open to public eyes.
PPS. Not that anyone's going to read it :P

It's true even my SAP personality test assignment said so. Lately I have been feeling secluded from everyone. I don't feel the same about socializing anymore. I don't know why. It's like I have a sudden urge to just get away from society nowadays. Most of my close friends from the past year have drifted away slowly. I still have some close friends and it seems like they're the only ones I am really "friends" with. I don't blame my other friends. A lot of this isolation thing is my fault. I don't talk to them, I don't reply to their messages, I don't call them, I just don't do anything anymore. Time to do something about it?

So I've heard about these blog thingies and I decided just to do one for fun. It's nice to let out your emotions in words sometimes you know? Wow, I really shouldn't be writing this entry right now. I should be doing my SAP position paper. Yeah, I have homework. From summer school. Insane. I know. Who takes SUMMER school on their own free will? I do. And let me say, I totally regret it 100%. Damn my ambition to gain extra credit. Oh well, off to finish up my paper.