I keep telling myself that I will distance myself from you once and for all. It's not working. When given the opportunity just to have even brief contact with you, I'll take it. I'll pounce on that opportunity just because I might have a chance at finding a way to mend things between us and having things back to how it was before. WHY? WHY AM I SO PATHETIC? Clearly, you don't have any interest in contacting me in any way anymore.. So why do I keep trying?! It's so stupid. My subconscious is still attached to you :/ When I go to places, even if there's a one in a million chance you're there, I will keep an eye out just in case you are there. If I get a text message, I hope that maybe, just maybe, it's you who decided to break the awkwardness between us and just "talk" like we used to. I need to make a final clean break. Just not yet...