Since I have been at home doing nothing productive at all for the past few days, I've had time to think to myself. Dangerous grounds I know LOL. I should really get myself occupied -___-" But lately I've been thinking.. (here I go again with the useless ranting!)..
Have you ever sat back and wondered why you chose to do the things you did? Like, why you chose to eat that cereal for breakfast instead of the other. Or, why you chose to not go out today and stay home. Why you chose to hang out with that group of friends rather than the other. Why you chose to go to that highschool and not the one where all your friends are going to. Everyone makes tons of choices throughout their whole lives. Choices. Choices. Choices. That's basically what makes us who we are. We are the choices we've made. Minus the whole which cereal you wanted for breakfast today LOL. But as I was saying, choices. There have been many choices that I've made that I really regret now. Sometimes I wonder how different things would have been if I had stopped to think clearly and carefully made my decisions. Maybe I would be happier? Sadder? Less regretful? I can think of one decision, or well, a series of decisions I have made that I wish I could change. If I had been more critical at the time and less reckless with my decisions, maybe I would not be thinking of what could have been. I should learn to forget the past and look forward. It's hard though, it really is. Especially when the "what if"s keep haunting you. The "should've"s "could've"s and "would've"s. The possibilities. Wow, I need to get myself together and learn to leave the past where it's supposed to be, behind me. I need to leave him behind me. Wow, I really sound like the stereotypical over dramatic teen.