So, you're kind of a dumbass and a douchebag and I just want to say, I really really dislike you. That is all.

(8) I'm going to live forever, people will see me and cry.
I'm going to make it to heaven, light up the sky like a flame. (8)

Okay, hands down, Fame is my favourite movie of '09. I need to go out and buy this DVD as soon as it comes out. It is AMAZING. I love it. This kind of sounds like a movie review... Ew... o_o" Well, for a change of subject... There was this one lead in the movie, Marco, played by Asher Book... Let me tell you, he is the CUTEST thing EVER. I mean, he plays the piano and can sing. Who wouldn't love that? Oh and did I mention his adorable smile and cute face? LOVE him. I went and downloaded like all the songs he sang from the movie :P Obsessed? Nah. Infatuated? Most definitely. If only I can find a guy with that voice and talent...

We went to the university fair before watching it and I have created my backup list just in case I don't get into McGill (which is actually very likely...) In order from second choice and lower: McMasters, Guelph, Waterloo and U of T. Except, I don't know if these are even allowed to be considered second choices -.-" They are just as difficult to get in as McGill. For some reason, I love planning out the next few years of my life. It gets me so excited ^^ I can't wait to grow up and get out of Toronto!

Sometimes I read and get lost in the fantasized world of the story itself. It's not only books, it's dramas, movies, etc. Then I always think to myself "Why isn't life like this?" It sucks to be under this addiction yet again. But... it kinda feels good to lose sight of reality and get lost in my own world, even if it's just for a few moments.

I am so involved this year in school, it's insane. I'm the VP of two clubs, member of four clubs so far (and I plan to join like 32094857 more with Catherine and together we will be "The notorious two who join all clubs but aren't active members!" heheheh). On top of that, I'm a section editor of the yearbook committee AND I am dedicating an hour of every Saturday to volunteering at a reading program with children at my local library. Oh and did I mention I want to join badminton, soccer (only cause I want a sweater with my name on it...) and dance class with Zaynna? o_____o" Let's just hope this doesn't come back and bite me. Now, I have something to do almost everyday of the week (except Fridays and Sundays) but I did apply for a few job opportunities that I'm certain will not be hiring me... but who knows? ;P This actually is really fun! It's just Functions homework that stresses me and French class itself parce que mon français est très mal. Why, you ask, did I continue? Because I am an overachiever who dreams of being trilingual by the end of high school and multilingual after university (including Japanese, Korean and Spanish). However, this has a 99.99% chance of not happening (the same percent of germs Purell kills!). I also have a Macbeth paper to write up -.-' Oh, and don't forget the Biology proposal sheet and study chart we have to create... But to be honest, I'd rather focus on my co-curricular activities than boring homework! Things like.. what we should do as a second performance at Culturama for OCClub and how we are going to set up both clubs for Club Crawl... Hmmm... I need some coffee. Yum. Although it kills brain cells apparently or prevents you from creating more. I forgot which one... OH NO. It's starting already!!!!!!!!!!!

Piling functions homework, a tedious biology project, and a new Shakespeare play to read. School's really, officially, actually started. Hurray. =.= I've finally gotten around to finish my library volunteer application form and I'm starting to apply for a part-time job. I'm trying to keep myself really busy and involved this year as you can see. It's going to keep me from thinking about unnecessary, bothersome ideas this school year ;P Overthinking things has always been my weakness. Remember my past paranoia? It's back, but now, it's starting to make me pissed off :| That's not healthy, I know, but it's like I've missed the feeling of being angry and now I'm really feeding on it. I hope I don't just explode and do something stupid. I have to learn to ignore this paranoia or else my school year's going to suck even more than it should.

On another note, I AM SO PISSED THAT I CAN'T GO WATCH A FILM DURING THE TIFF ): It's too expensive... I'm so broke right now. Maybe next year.. But still, there was a film this year called "Bare Essence of Life" or something with Kenichi Matsuyama! I reallllly wanted to see it :/

I should be doing my homework right now but instead, I'm wasting my time writing this random, useless, long blog entry and watching TMZ on TV LOL. I'm also looking for other job opportunities on the internet to apply for. I found out that Forever21 doesn't hire non- high school graduates. I'm so sad. At least H&M does. Yayyyyyy~ I hope I get at least one interview before next week...

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PS. I just had to give a little tribute to Park Jaebeom of 2PM who has currently left the group and Korea because of an incident years ago. Although I'm not a really big fan of 2PM, it makes me sad to see such a great group like them breaking up because of stupid anti-fans. Keep your head high Jae, those antis are trash. I hope you come back soon (:

School's started. Bleh. I think this is going to be a boring year? Maybe. Planning my Montreal trip with the girls right now (: This is what I'm looking forward to. Only about 4 more months left until our planned journey, I cannot wait!

Today at 7AM, my dad and mom dragged my brother and I out of the house and onto the road without an explanation. However, after about an hour on the road, I learned WHY we were suddenly leaving for a "trip" and well, the purpose sort of sucked. Something came up and so yeah. I thought that the reason for this trip was really stupid, unnecessary and gay. My parents thought that it was a good enough reason apparently, so we set off to NJ. Yes. The garden state. WTF. I didn't even get enough time to pack my bags. All I brought along was the essentials and one pair of jeans and two tees. FML? I was a bit annoyed at first but then I thought that I might as well enjoy this and consider it as a "spontaneous vacation".

We set off until we reached Niagara Falls. We decided to go and visit my cousins. They were still asleep when we arrived and I don't blame them! It was only 9AM after all. I managed to wake them up though (: Justin's growing! He sort of remembered me LOL! He still likes me the best ;) After stealing waterbottles and food, we left their house. Then we headed to the border and bought stuff at the duty free place. Then my dad and mom had a whole episode about misplacing the passports o___o" Luckily found them wayyy at the bottom of my mom's purse :P Women and their bags.

We passed customs easy but THEN - here comes the good part - after my dad drove through customs and got on the freeway, he stopped the car on the side of the road and told me it was my turn to drive..

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Take it in. I WAS BEING TOLD TO DRIVE ON THE HIGHWAY. Not even on a Canadian highway, an American highway. Extreme. I WAS SO SCARED :| It was really freaky at first but I sort of got used to it (sort of.. not really) He made me drive all the way until we reached NJ. That's about 6-7 hours? Oh don't worry, not 7 hours straight. There were two breaks in between -_-" Anywho, I made it without any damage to the car or myself or my family. Well I lied.. there was that one time I kind of grazed the curb on the sharp exit ramp.. I was nervous okay?! Holy crap though, the scariest time of my life.. I thought I was going to die. But luckily I survived :P We got to go shopping when we reached here though.. LOL. Like that makes up for the 7 hours of stressing concentration and constant fear of death I endured.

Now I am sitting in the dark of our room in the "RED BULL INN" Weird name right? I should ask them if they're affiliated with the energy drink :o My brother's asleep beside me after watching Yugioh on my laptop LOL. Loser. I currently have the sniffles and a slight case of insomnia hence this late post. However, I can't think of enough things to write about until I fall asleep so I think I'll go find something else to do on the internet (:

Starting today, I am starting my HEALTHY lifestyle (: Let's see how long this will last LOL. No more fast food starting today, since I already broke that rule twice already.. How can you resist the call of the food court in Vmall ? And I have got to say, Twoonie tuesday really is evil. There's more than just cutting down on the junk I put into my system. No more being horribly lazy and sleeping in until 12PM. I need to change my sleeping habits anyways since school is starting :| I think I need to clean out my closet as well.. There's so much stuff in there that I don't even wear anymore! Plus, I need to make room for back-to-school clothes! I think I'm going to ease up on my obsession with black/dark sweaters and actually make an attempt to dress nice and mature this year ;)

So what's causing all this change? Well, I actually had a talk about growing up with my mom today. She's starting to accept the fact that I am probably, most likely moving far away for university, specifically to Montreal for McGill (if I get in..) She's still trying to persuade me to stay here for school but I think she understands that I've made this decision with no intention of turning back. I inherited the stubbornness from her after all. This may seem irrelevant but I also got permission to wear heels whenever I want now.. LOL WOW I'M SUCH A KID. But after seeing Maliko's really nice leather boots from London, I fell in love with heels and the height advantage they give ;) I'm continuing to sharpen my driving skills and soon I'm going to get my G2! Then I can legally drive without my dad's supervision !

I feel as though I should at least try to mature a little since I'm almost 17.. Everyone else seems to be growing up too, so I think this isn't too bad is it? Like yesterday when I was there with Maliko to get her "LIFECHANGING" thing, I was thinking "Wow, we really have grown up..." So yeah, I feel it's my turn to start growing up a little. But I'm secretly still a kid at heart though (;