So today, I was denied a job because I wasn't willing to sacrifice my weekends for work ): I really wanted that job though! But the times were insane. Friggin 10AM - 9PM on Saturdays and 11AM - 7PM on Sundays PLUS Holiday extended hours? TT___TT AGHASDFLK but a job at One's is like my dream part-time job ):

Plan A: Screw school and work at One's [ omg -_- ]
Plan B: McDonalds...? [ self-inflicted torture due to fast food ban ]
Plan C: Thai/Chinese Restaurant across the street...? [ hmmm... ]
Plan D: Ask for favours from Godbrother who works at Tims LOL.

I am so desperate for a job it's scary. I need a money source. Now.

PS. Boyfriend is so cute (:
HAHAHA I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS DAVID.

You make me smile when you're around.
When you're around, I don't even think about him.
You make me laugh without even trying.
When you're around, I can't help but forget him.

I just want to make sure that I'm not only using you to forget about him.
I'm trying to keep away from you but.. for some reason I can't? Does it mean I really do like and I'm not using you for my own selfish reasons?

After thinking about the past, I discovered a major flaw I have. It's the fact that I always, at least most of times, get myself into things halfheartedly. But I don't want to make that mistake over and over again. In the past, I do many things without carefully thinking. But now that I think about it, it's okay to not rush things. It's better not to, actually. It's better to take my time and think about everything over. Because I don't want to still doubt my feelings and I don't want to still have lingering feelings. I don't want other feelings, period. I still need to time to clear my head of all these tormenting thoughts I have been having lately. Mainly, about him. I need to be 100% sure that I am over him. I need to know that if I get involved in this, I will wholeheartedly. So please wait a little longer for me. I'm not pushing you away because I don't like you, it's cause I'm not really ready. But when the time comes that I am, I most definitely will consider being more than friends.

(8) I feel what I've been feeling for you, means I am falling for you. Something's opened up inside of me and I dream in shades that only can be: the colors of you and me. I think we both know what that means. I stand inside this promise I made to myself. If I fall. If I break. If I lose myself in someone. If I give all I am, it'll be with you. When I'm ready to take all that you want me to give, it will be worth the wait. My heart, I wanna save it for you. Don't want it broken into pieces. I need myself to be whole. Could we just sit and talk a while? Just wanna see you smile, feel your sunlight shining over me. (8)

(8) Bit by bit, I think we are drifting apart.
Look at me, I'm laughing more often...
Sometimes my days go by comfortably.

Bit by bit, I think I am forgetting you, like today.

Now calling your name is no big deal.
Time has thrown me aside.
Now bit by bit, my hurt and sadness are disappearing. (8)

Okay, maybe I did lie about getting over him completely. I'm pathetic aren't I? But now, I can finally say that it really is much easier now. I don't think about you until someone mentions you. Even when they do, I can shrug it off and forget about it. Now I finally think I can fully enjoy my long awaited freedom from you. Besides, I think it's time to let someone else take your place.

Nuit Blanche = Uber fun especially when you go with the right people. An encounter with a supposedly famous guy from Camp Rock, a late ghost, almost getting hit by a car while J-walking, a pool of questionable vodka, and an annoying subway ride home near a group of squealing girls. It was just an amazing night :) We are definitely going again next year. Hopefully, I can stay later next time. I must, because everyone needs to follow Muhammad. LOL. Abdul is too jokes xD

Zaynna has once again raised doubt in my mind about something I was so adamant about (that's the third time already) :| That is not good. I'm spending too much time thinking about this now. But why...? Maybe there was always this small doubt in my mind and she only made it surface. She knows me way too well. And that's scary -.-" She needs to stop going inside my head and messing around with it. What should I do? I think that I should just leave it alone. Let's just see how it all turns out?

PS. I hope your wish comes true, whatever it was.