After thinking about the past, I discovered a major flaw I have. It's the fact that I always, at least most of times, get myself into things halfheartedly. But I don't want to make that mistake over and over again. In the past, I do many things without carefully thinking. But now that I think about it, it's okay to not rush things. It's better not to, actually. It's better to take my time and think about everything over. Because I don't want to still doubt my feelings and I don't want to still have lingering feelings. I don't want other feelings, period. I still need to time to clear my head of all these tormenting thoughts I have been having lately. Mainly, about him. I need to be 100% sure that I am over him. I need to know that if I get involved in this, I will wholeheartedly. So please wait a little longer for me. I'm not pushing you away because I don't like you, it's cause I'm not really ready. But when the time comes that I am, I most definitely will consider being more than friends.

(8) I feel what I've been feeling for you, means I am falling for you. Something's opened up inside of me and I dream in shades that only can be: the colors of you and me. I think we both know what that means. I stand inside this promise I made to myself. If I fall. If I break. If I lose myself in someone. If I give all I am, it'll be with you. When I'm ready to take all that you want me to give, it will be worth the wait. My heart, I wanna save it for you. Don't want it broken into pieces. I need myself to be whole. Could we just sit and talk a while? Just wanna see you smile, feel your sunlight shining over me. (8)