School is so stressful right now. I can't seem to do anything right in my courses. I know it's grade 11 but.. I am supposed to be able to at least do moderately well. If other's can do it, why can't I? Why am I falling behind? I feel like the one think that I was so sure of, during my entire life is slipping from my fingers. I try and try constantly to find the bright side but it's so hard right now. All I can think about is everything bad that happened. I'm such a pessimistic person that it's even affected the other aspects of my life. And that makes me so so so sad. I can't believe that I put you through all that crap. I love you. I know you understand completely and you forgive me for everything but... I feel like I owe you so much. You're always there for me... No matter what. You're always there to support me even if I'm being completely unreasonable. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even deserve you. You love me so unconditionally, so completely, so simply, and so perfectly. I want to do the same for you, but sometimes, I feel like all I do is make you sad. And that hurts me so much. I'm supposed to make you happy. That's the only thing I want to do. As long as you're happy, I could be a housewife who paints highways for a living and I wouldn't care. But the past few days... it seems my frustrations and emotions took over that priority. All I could was lash out to anyone near me. I'm really sorry. You are my world. You have to know that. You have to know that you are my one love. I would never do anything on purpose to ever hurt you. When you're sad, I feel like I've done the biggest wrong in the world. That's why, as soon as I come to realize my mistake, I apologize right away. And even after I apologize, I don't feel as if that's enough. I feel regretful and remorseful. I feel as if I deserve to wallow in misery because I put you through that pain. You never deserved any of it. You only deserve to be happy. Always. And I promise, that from now on, I will be the one that will make you happy. I will learn to control my emotions. I will learn to keep my frustration from lashing out on you. I love you. I really do. I would never want to hurt you. That's why I'm trying. I'm trying my best to learn how to love you perfectly, just like how you love me. 사랑해 ♥

It's only been about 4 and a half hours since I saw you and I already miss you terribly. The past 2 days have been the best of my life. I was so happy and so carefree. With you by my side, I felt so free and strong. Even now, when you're not here, I feel strong because I know you will support me through everything. Just like you have for the past few months. Do you understand how much you mean to me now? You are worth more to me than the world. Without you, I don't know what I would do anymore. You are my sunshine and you are my support. You are my safe haven and you are my happiness. I love you with all my heart, truly and dearly. I hope you're having fun at your friend's party right now (although I secretly wish it was 8 already so I can call). You deserve the best always and forever my love ♥

I'm supposed to be doing my computer graphics and physics homework in class right now but I just can't focus. I can't. Not while knowing you're upset with me... I didn't know that it would make you sad... I'm so sorry. Right now, I can't wait until 3:05 so that I can go and see you and give you a hug and make you feel better and apologize properly. I don't want you to be sad anymore. You don't understand how much it worries and hurts me to see you sad. Please don't be upset with me my love. My habits are hard to break but maybe.. you can help me. I won't listen to anyone else but if it's you, I'm willing to change. I'll do anything. Anything to make you happy, remember? I meant it when I said that. I love you.